Monday, 17 November 2014

my second birth experience

Oh my.last post is bout the announcement and its November already. alhamdulillah. I just gave birth to a healthy baby boy on 14/8/14.





Even I experienced the lobour 1 and 4months before, still i can't differentiate between false alarm or the real contraction. Last time, Amna was born 4days before the edd. i kinda expect, it was the same with baby no 2.

Bila dah hujung-hujung pregnancy, i wish that i will give birth earlier. Lagi-lagi, kawan-kawan zaman kecik semuanya dah bersalin. I was all excited (erm, except the pain)to have a baby. Above all, I felt so heavier day by day. The heaviest weight so far. Susahnya nak bangun dari duduk, susahnya nak tunduk, cepat penat and difficult bila nak tidur malam sebab baby tersangatlah aktif. 

I've sense that maybe i'll go to the labour on 14/8/14. Sebab tarikh cantik, senang nak ingat.hehe.. So as usual, i was wake up in the middle of the night to visit the loo. It was 2 am. Rasa macam sakit sikit, but i thought it was nothing. Rasa macam sakit biasa la agaknya because it came and go for the past 2 weeks. it will go after having some rest. At 4am, again i was wake up. But this time, sakit perut tu tetap sama. tak hilang-hilang. Maybe because i eat like a p*g the day before and takes a lot of time to discard them. It was totally confusing.

So i google, macam mana sakit contraction. sempat lagi. It stated, it was like having a period pain.seriously, i havent had my period for the past 10months. So i got the idea to download contraction calculator. Hehe..it was like 5minutes in the gap. Terus kejutkan husband and told him, i am in pain. He asked weather i want to go to the hospital or not. Time tu teragak-agak. should or should not.well, ingatkan sakit biasa and bila dah siang, it will be okay. But then, bila bangun berjalan pun still sakit. So i said yes. Then he decided to bring amna as we both dont know weather this is the false alarm or not. While he prepared amna's diaper bag, i took shower and prepared myself. 

And soon as we both finished, amna was wakes up. At 5.30, we go to the hospital. Meanwhile, the contraction is not a joke. Husband was panicked (he didnt said this but i know. He even forget the way to the hospital and i have to guide him). The road was so terrible that even he drove really slow, i could still feel the bump. Itu dah macam gerakkan naga yang sedang tidor je. I cant control my anger that sometimes im shouting. Well sayang, I cant tolerate that..hahaha 

We arrived at jabatan kecemasan HSI during the subuh adzan. Hsi is really strict. If youre not 4cm dilated, they wont accept you. That what make us unsure. After registration, they asked me to go laid at bilik saringan. I was there waiting for a doctor to check while having to tahan sakit.oh my.oh my. 

After bout half an hour a dr came for a check. It was 4cm. So the baby will come today. Alhamdulillah. The labour room was fulled. Jadi, i have to waited outside. I was there sambil baca surah-surah yang mana teringat. Nurse came in, pass the pink attire, ambik kasut, bag everything, and suruh berehat. If anything, just told them. Memang dah tak rasa nak tidor pun. The contraction keep stronger.

After an hour, it getting pretty intense. A young dr tengah check another patient kat sebelah tu. She told me kalau rasa nak b*rak, told her. I said yes. Dah lama lepas tu, she heard me mengerang kesakitan. Time tu memang rasa nak nangis. tetiba je teringat, ha time nak nangis ni la dah boleh nak beranakkan amna.eh aku dah nak besalin ke.siap boleh monolog dalaman lagi.haha..

So, she asked her friend friend to check on me. Cute je orangnya, she said, 8cm. Dah boleh tolak dah ni. I was like, what, 8cm. nak tunggu bila ni. huhu..cannot tahan anymore la dr. Then nurse datang, nak tolak masuk labour room. I said, I cannot walk or sit down anymore. Rasa macam anytime je. She said yeah, it's because kepala baby memang dah kat bawah tu aje. She's nice. So paksa kan jugak duduk atas wheelchair. Nasib baik dekat. Haha..then dah sampai bilik no 12, another nurse prepare everything and check again. Katanya, dh fully dilated. Nak besalin pun boleh dah ni.

Why sama je macam amna. Orang suruh besalin, time-time tu la tak rasa. Siap boleh betahan lagi dengan sakit tu. After half and hour, alhamdulillah. Lahirlah our baby, Muhammad Ammar. Oh husband tak sempat masuk sebab dia pegang Amna.

This time, after bersalin je, terus nurse letakkan Ammar on my chest. Last time, they just show Amna and asked the gender. So i thought, bagusla (ke haku je tak ambik tau pasal prosedur ni). The beauty of newborn baby. Licin. Haha. That the first thing bout him. Takut sikit dia jatuh sebab licin ke hapa. Lepas besalin, macam wah penatnya. But then, dia senyap je. Sambung tidor. Adik ni.hahhaha...even suruh nursing pun taknak. After an hour of skin to skin, nurse wanted to wrap him. Menangis budak kecik ni. Bukan calang-calang k, memang kuat gila. Teharu mama because he want only mama. Letak je atas mama, senyap. Siap tidur macam kan sedap sangat. yerla anak.mama banyak isi.

Yes, kelahiran setiap anak sememangnya berbeza. Pertama ka, kedua ka, jalan ceritanya tetap tidak sama. sentiasa special. Nothing like the first born is the special one. No, but first born is every parents first love. But one thing for sure. Kasih sayang tu tak pernah terbahagi. actually, ianya bertambah.



Monday, 31 March 2014

The new 'news'

From the last post (that is like so last year), I bought a book ‘now you are a mother’. Neither that I know, it was so ‘near’ to me that the next thing is, I’m getting pregnant again! Haha..what a coincidence. The current pregnancy is unexpected, well how you expect, it’s not your plan. It’s what Allah had written to his entire slave. At first, I was lke er..im pregnant again? But the next day, the joy of being pregnant flooded me. But to experience the second birth, it creep me out.

Husband was the one who insisted me to take the upt test. I know, he is so excited to know and all over the moon. I was so scared to make the test but deep inside me, I knew it. I am pregnant. It just, it takes some time for me to really enjoy it. Not that I don’t want it (who doesn’t want a baby), but you know..a mama issue. 

The joy of having another addition came faster. I started to think the gender, the name and everything. Despite I worried over some matters (I tend to get worried about the first trimester and others), it was like the first one. I was overwhelmed. I’m having morning sickness (luckily, it make me lose those stubborn 5kg weight) but so far, I am healthy. Been worried about the excess weight. But after the first trimester, the lose weight came faster. My god, should watch my weight after this. I don’t want to be obese. Crying.


I don’t mind a girl or boy. I enjoy both. Hehe..But I was so sorry to Amna. My energy drained faster than I though. Thanks to my husband who so understands bout my condition. The first pregnancy,I get to met him in 2 or 3 weeks but this time, Alhamdulillah. He was here beside me.I am really hoping, our life will become much more merrier, dilimpahi rezeki and bertambah bahagia. 

Thursday, 12 December 2013

Book: Now you are a mother


Reading is a time i love most. Lately, susah pulak nak curi masa. But, this book is a good start. Suitable for new mom, mommy-to-be and mother too. A guide for a Muslim mum from pregnancy till the baby is 4 years old. It contains basic tips for taking care of a newborn baby, for mothers and many more. Worth to read I must say.


Please excuse me, i wanna flip over the pages






Tanjung Piai

Last week, my family came for a visit. Memandangkan suami bekerja, so I take my parents to Tanjung Piai. It takes almost 53km from my house in JB to Tanjung Piai. 


The reason is because, I wanna step the southernmost tip of the asia mainland. Hehe..


It was situated in the national park Tanjung Piai. From there, you have to explore the park by walking.

The ticketing is rm5 for adult and rm3 for warga emas. It is a wild park so please take extra cautions. So many monkeys berkeliaran. We bring an umbrella because it was at noon. Kesian Amna takut dia demam. 

At the hall

Beautiful rainforest

The map of the park




Overall, it was like an exercise for us. Haha.. You can view the sea side and a great idea to bring children and teach them to take care of the nature.


Friday, 1 November 2013

Her five months

1 months
banyak tidur dari berjaga. and she smile in her sleep. macam best tengok anak tidur sambil senyum. sometimes menangis tiba-tiba. Luckily, Amna jenis yang tak berjaga malam. hurm, macam perangai mak dia sangat, tak suka stay up malam. She wake up 2 to 3 times for bf. Tapi susah betul nak poo-poo. But they said it was normal for bf babies.

2 months
she can smile socially. time tidur pun tak berubah but takde la macam baby kena jaundice dulu.asik tidur je sampaikan main-main pipi pun still tidur. 

first time senyum bila mama panggil nama


3 months
I caught her roll over but it was mainly because tidur atas bantal karipap. pusing cari mama takde so that, she can roll over. But, after that susah la nak tengok dia pusing meniarap. hehe..she smile widely when she see me. She love to make a bubble. Habis basah baju. Kena pakai bib la. Tapi dia suka pulak tarik bib tu maybe sebab ada plastic, she love dengar bunyi plastik. love to eat her hand. Cium je bau masam.kahkah.. 



4 months
finally, she can roll over a week before entering 5 months. Haha.. mama was so glad that she finally showing her skill. We were eating a breafast at my sister's house when suddenly I caught her lying on her stomach. what a surprise. I even ask her to show again. haha.. but she decide to keep it to herself.
Everyday tengok je perangai dia sebab dah gian nak meniarap agaknya. Cuba-cuba sampai la berjaya.Oh Amna, mama and abah is so proud of you. haha..macam ni la bila dah jadi mak. anak pandai sikit pun dah bangga, terharu semua. sob sob. 

5 months
she master the art of rolling over. dah pandai nak'kisar tepung'. haha..dari utara sampai la barat semua. she became a pro. kalau dengar je dia bunyi hok hek, terus kena datang. sebab biasanya dia dah pusing meniarap cari mama. and first time kena tinggal dengan maktok sebab mama kena drive pergi school. She behave. Maktok kata takde masalah. siap minum susu sampai 7 auns. Padahal kat rumah tak pernah pulak minum banyak macam tu and jarang boleh tidur tanpa mama. good job baby. First time tinggal anak sampai 6 jam, hurm im no that worry. cuma asyik teringat la. maybe sebab i know that she is in good hand. oh she bable a lot. kuat menjerit.  and dah start pilih her familiar faces. If not, she will start crying out loud.

Dah pandai menjulur. This one, mama tak sempat tengok her first move. Maktok tengah take pict then ternampak she move herself to pick up a toy. I was a bit frustated. Because I want to be the first one to witness that. Haha..over but yes, maybe semua working mama pun rasa macam tu kot. And she surprise me that afternoon. I was taking her video when suddenly, dia menjulur ke depan. what a proud mama i am. haha..riuh okay bagitau husband. kahkahkah.after a week baru riuh pasal anak dah pandai pusing, dia pandai meniarap pun lagi la nak riuh kan. hehe.. typical mama. 


Dear Amna Hafiya,
no matter what you were our precious.
Semoga membesar dengan sihat.



Friday, 18 October 2013

The labour story

I mean to write bout the labour story longg time ago. Ya Allah, it's already oct so that mean, she now 6 months old. It's a cliche. But, time really flies so fast.

Well, where do I begin. I remember everything like it was just yesterday. Tanya la mana-mana mak pun, mesti ingat punya.I experienced the contraction for the past 4 weeks before but it was only braxton hicks. so takde la mengelabah. people said, if it was very often, you should be worry. 

I was very worried as my due date is nearer. If possible, I dont want to be induced. I want it to come naturally. Everybody said, kena banyak berjalan.Come on, with 9 months belly, I rather sleep in or watching tv. hehe.. who care. That's the only time you have your 'me' time before err..having baby.Haha..judging from this blog, that is so true. My world is resolve around her nowadays!

that night, i was missing my husband. We both agreed that he will not going back till the due date which fall in the middle of the weekdays. I was on the phone talking to him. But I felt something different. You knew it was different. You just knew.

I told him I wanna go to the toilet.But I am puzzled. I saw a tiny red spot.Is it a blood strain or it was my only blind sight.hehe..I told my mom, when suddenly, a fresh blood coming down. My mom ask my father to go to the hospital.but, he said that Im not feel the pain yet (It was a mild contraction). And continue to sleep. Nasib tak terberanak kt rumah.

Mom was insist we go to the hospital. It was nearly 1.30 am. I called my husband and told him. He was about to sleep in. So kesian as he didnt get his sleep yet but had to drive nearly 700 km at that time.

At the hospital, the nurse check on me. Pasang ctg to check baby heartbeat(if im not mistaken). Amboi baby. siap tido lagi macamkan takde apa pun. A dr came and check the procedure and all. Then, he had to check on the bukaan. Hurm, it was painful but not as painful as a contraction. HAHA.well, nothing beats that matter.

I was 4cm dilated. I was then ask to be in the labour room. I change to the pink gown, then nurse give me something to help my bowel movement. So effective. the minute after, I have to go to the bathroom like right now.haha..She also gave milo with crackers.  Dad bring me a bread and kaya, but I cant eat. I already eat since Friday morning till that night. yes, I am that full. mom was feeding me like a p*g and like she sense that I'm going to give birth that day. I also drank 3 glasses of air zam-zam.

Surprising, when they asked me to go to the labour room, I was so sleepy. I don't know. Am I that freaked out when i I heard labour so that my body react that way. Haha. Entering that room, I can feel that it was so cold. Ada hati lagi nak mintak selimut dari nurse. Belum tau nasib sendiri tu.kahkahkah.

It was nearly 5 am. I can heard a woman saying that it was painful to her mother. If husband was there, of course I'll book the room where husband also can accompany. At that time, the pain come and go. It was still bearable. Nurse came and inject something. Even I felt so sleepy earlier,but I can't sleep.

6 am, 7 am .It getting continues. I taking a glace at the reading. The thing that they put aside your bed. Im sweating a lot. Lucky me many intern that day. And not so many patient in the labour room. So they came and help to ease the pain. She help to refresh me with water and another intern help to rub my body.

I thought I will give birth at midnight. HAHA.well, because my sis were like that before. So I was pretty sure I will experience the same. I dont know that most probably, it will takes 1 hr to dilated 1 cm. 

At 9 am, a dr came to check on me. She then said that, you were about a time. You can push whenever you want. The funny thing is, the pain is gone. Where you were going, Im about to give birth, contraction! come back okey. 

They waited for me. Hurm for a long time. Until I cannot tahan anymore. I was surround by nurses and dr. They keep motivating me to push. Well, how I'm gonna push. Teach me! After a while, the dr told me that she going to help me by using forcep.While they were preparing, wearing glove and other,they put on a stick (for resting the foot) at that bed. Spontaneous, I got an idea to push without she help me using forcep.Hey, I can use my leg to help me pushy you know. haha..after 3 trial, allahuakbar, she was born. Dr then put her on me. I only can see her hair. After they cut her umbilical cord, nurse want me to confirm 'she'. Masyaallah. She is red. It was a quick one before passing her for other procedure. I can heard my baby crying so loudly while me being stitches. So loud.haha..I can see a chinesse dr carring her around the room, like showing her what is the world. I know that she is my baby daughter from her pink blanket. I can believe that I am a mother.

She then given to me for her first latch. Ya Allah, I was tear up. A bit emotional when she latched on. What a beautiful baby. Alhamdulillah.  I smell her hair. The heavenly smell. And, at that moment, all the pain were gone. I can barely remember what is the pain of a contraction.


On her first day in this world

Saturday, 6 April 2013

The Viva Voce

As I said earlier in the previous post, I had my viva on 27th March. It was a day before my brother's reception. I guess, it need a separate post as this also means something to me. I received a phone called form the office 2 weeks before the date, asking if I could have my viva on 28th March. Oh my, the same exact date. I ask for a day earlier. So they approved.

All this while, I was praying that, my viva will held before my due date. So then, I can do the correction on my confinement days. Yeah right.hehehe...also, it easier for me to travelled to USM as I can leave my baby to my mother. Alhamdulillah, Allah granted my prayer.

After receiving the phone calls, here come the study part.hehehe..haih bukan la study banyak sangat pun. It's too bad attitude. Haiyo.. rasa macam lost track pulak. But alhamdulillah. everything went well. Despite, there were some questions that I blurred, hahahhaha..they agreed to awarded my master, with condition, I completed my correction. They asked if I want 6 months or 9 months considering that I'm pregnant, I choose 9 months. It's a very long due but I hope I can grad this year. So I have to send to the senate before September I guess. Pretty please, can I do the correction faster? oh well. Let's strive hardly.

Thanks to my husband. He took a leave nearly a week, padahal he just got back to JB on Sunday then have to traveled back on Monday night for the sake of giving me motivation and become my driver.tq husband!

Reminiscing the memory doing the research, there were some ups and downs. I realize that, I love research more than I know. I always happy when I get good result or I learn something new. But the worst part, being a researcher, u have to read a lots of journals!!man, it was so hard memorizing everything.hahhahaha...I knew that I wanted to made a career in this field or so. I adore educator and researcher.

Some people do wonder what actually a second degree student doing?okay la. some people might get it but i do get a lot of questions from stranger!can u imagine, someone u barely knew wanted to know everything bout you?entah la.mb because I once become a top student at my primary school (ni bukan riak ni, sekarang dah ramai.it just, during my day) so then, there were so many people asking here and there.

yeah. I know I took a long way just to complete my second degree(actually, it's not that complete yet, still on the way). If I were taking a class, then it were easier to said that, I'll finish in some term or term. But doing a research, we also don't know the time to complete yet. After sending the hardest part, the thesis, then you have to face the viva voce and then do the correction, then you officially grad. see.even I'm complete my task, still it's a long way for me. I know, maybe they were concern towards my career and my life, but, I believe in rezeki Allah yang akan tentukan. Not to worry, kalau berusaha, insyaAllah, He granted you something.

Okay. Now, it's time to complete the correction. Sikit pun tak bukak lagi. Haha..boleh siap ke ni?Im positive I can. Hehe..Takpa la. at least, berazam jugak.hehe