Tips on Weaning off the big girl

15/5/2015 The day that I decided to wean her off.

Today is the second week that I trained Amna to stop breastfeeding. At the age of 2 years and a month, finally, she stop glued to mama. But I miss staring in her eyes,I miss talking to her and I miss hearing her say 'sedap mama'. Oh Lord,  I miss her so much! she even name it as 'dude'.

my girl

When I was pregnant with Ammar, I ignore those voice that want me to stop bf her. She was only 7 months backthen. And I don't have any complication to restrict me from giving her breastmilk. Although, my supply went down, it doesn't stop her from finding her comfort zone. By the way, I'm not exclusively breastfeed her. But she constantly glued to her 'dude'.When her baby brother arrive, she get more milk supply which impossible to stop her. I once try to stop her from bf , she cry her lung out. But then, I gave in because I miss her so much. Failed miserable.


I google so many tips to weaning off a baby. It required : Strong heart. Something that I lack off. Well, how could you say no to your baby, right.
So, on that Friday night, it came in an instant. I make a decision to stop her no matter what. Talk about determination.

The first night, she wakes up and asked for 'dude'. I said, she already a big girl and asked her to sleep back. She cried of course. I hold her, hug and tell her that Mama loves her so much. In a second, she was calm down and sleep on my shoulder. She sleep through the night but again wakes up at dawn, which not so hard to put her to sleep again. I felt a bit relieve. On Saturday morning, she asked but I constantly said, she is a big girl already. Husband was really helpful but sometimes, ada jugak la dia mengalah. Haha.

I was so pissed off when he wanted to give up and asked me to continue bf her when she was out of control. I said, he will have to be responsible if he refuse to support me because all my hard effort was wasted. He then agree. There are times when she miss it, mostly when she wanted to sleep. During day, she played and eat, and played with her abah. I can see that, she turn from her comfort zone by eating so much and watched cartoon. For the time being, I'll let her watched cartoon more than her normal time.

The most heartbreaking scene for now is on the second night, she wailed her hand while saying 'jangan mama, jangan' and cry bucket. While I was constantly telling her she is a big girl, she kept repeated that she is a big girl like a mantra and mumbling in her language. It was so hard to stay stronger when you just want to gave in in any minute. The thing that stop me is, she is a big girl and I'm so tired tandem them. But it was harder on her because she saw her baby brother happily sucking while she had to stop. Like you has to stop on something that you were really fond but seeing it constantly on your face.

By the third day, it turns out okay but it was not ok for me. After fetching them from their babysitter's house, she whispered in a naughty voice, asking for her 'dude'. At that time, I was like giving up. She was mesmerized, and look at me in confusion. Haha..But then, I stop and played with her. There are time when she came and asked, but when I say no, she just continue playing and don't mind either.

So the tips to stop this big girl is constantly/repeating saying she is a big girl. Don't scream, don't push, don't mad at her. But saying mama love her so much, indeed calm her. And it takes cooperation and great effort from the husband. I choose the weekend, because he will be home all the times. So when she was coming for her 'dude', my husband will distract her and give her milk, played with her. Most important, he will soother her to sleep. Since then, she was okay. She can survive. It was no guarantee that she'll forget but I can see an improvement in her. it may takes longer times because she saw her brother latch all the times but Alhamdulillah. I prayed that Allah will grant Amna patience and make her stronger each day. Not for the my sake but for her. Mama can't stand watching you cry, baby.

Suami dan washing machine

By now, almost 3 years married, memang dah tau la antara hobi my husband ialah membasuh baju. Haha..Dia memang suka sangat kalau dapat basuh baju. Katanya, dia suka tengok baju banyak-banyak kt ampaian lepas tu kering. yerla, tapi bab melipat memang sub kat isteri. Jarang-jarang dia lipat unless isteri penat sangat or dia dah habes kerja, boleh la tengok dia rajin tangan nak lipat baju.

So, this was a year ago. One day, dia on washine machine, tapi nothing happened. Being him, memang menggelabah terus ajak isteri beli washing machine baru. Husband ni memang tak boleh la kalau dia tengok bakul baju penuh. Rasanya, dia pening kot tengok baju banyak. Hahaha..So, isteri memang percaya la dengan dia sebab memang zone laundary tu, jarang-jarang jadi tempah persinggahan. hahahaha

Siap dah beli, sampai ja machine baru nak test, tengok-tengok, plug yang rosak. Haaa..memang rasa nak gelak sangat. Habis duit beribu padahal kalau check before tu, boleh save duit. Tapi takpa la. Memang dah takdir nak pakai machine baru kot. So, dah dekat setahun pakai, tetiba setiap kali basuh baju ja, bunyi macam bising nya machine tu. Sudah la. tapi memang kami pun buat dek je as long as dia buat kerja cukup la kot. Dah satu hal pulak kan nak kena pi tukar or apa-apa, so biar jerla dulu.

Until last friday, when i was trying to spin baju budak-budak tu, that machine suddenly keep repeating. so maybe load dia kurang kan, dah ubah posisi, susun balik bagi berat dia sama, still nothing change pun. Dah menggelabah dah suami tu. Dia kan penggemar washing machine. Dia punya idea, nak suh repair then nak trade in lepas tu p beli machine baru. Ha sudah dia ni. I kept pressuring him, p balik kedai tu, suh depa mai repair la. Ewah kata 5 years warranty la bla bla bla..Takpa la kalau tak basuh sehari dua kan. Daripada nak melabur lagi beribu. Hehe..ni pun, dia dah pikiaq nak p hantaq baju-baju kat kedai dobi mana pulak.. haila cik abang ni. Lawak sangat perangai.

Nasib baik isteri susah-sudah paksa p balik kedai tu, cari warranty card and kedai tu pun baik hati, suh tipu ja bila beli. Haha..at last, datang la technician dia betulkan machine tu. Rupanya, dia bunyi bising sebab alat tarik air (taktau la nama apa) rosak. So that's why, asek ketek ketek bunyi dia. Tak dapat tarik air. And now, dah okay. Fuh, dah betenang la si suami tu. Sebab dah boleh basuh baju. But now, banyaknya baju nak kena lipat. Sapa nak tolong.Harapan sangat nak mintak tlg budak bedua tu. Mungkin satgi, mak dia yang kena kutip baju merata-rata. Hurm..

3-step skincare

Every time I watch Korean drama, I can't help but noticed that, they have lots of beauty products on their dressing table. And usually, the actress will portrayed wearing a night cream and any others before their night scene. Cantiknya kulit depa. Everyone know Korean is so meticulous on their beauty care, so it make me wanna take care of mine too. Don't think i'm the suitable person to talk bout the skincare since my skin is not like a porcelain. But skincare is the basic care that everyone should know. I have so many scar from the previous acne, and the combination of dry and oily at the t-zone.

I've tried so many products but mostly from the drug store brand, and some that came with affordable price. Previously, I used seaweed from Bodyshop. It give great effect, my skin doesn't feel so dry anymore. But after using it for 2 years, I don't think it give the same effect as before. So I switch to Moisture White shiso facial wash. Just one pump, it give your skin the soft texture.

But then, I was so in love with the Clinique long before. Since pregnant with Ammar, it was like mengidam to use the 3-step. Haha.Takde mengidam makanan tapi mengidam pencuci muka. So then, sementara nak tunggu white shiso tu habis, I always visited clinique website. Man, it was so addictive. Full of colours and it feels like I wanna grab everything on the web. Nasib baik poket tak berapa kembung. Haha..


So, I purchase the 3-step skincare during Christmas promotion. And gave 2 free miniature. For me, the price is affordable and it can last for 4 months as told by the beauty consultant (but mine is still much more, I can said, it can last for 3 more months). Eversince using that, I can see that, my skin feels brighter (not become fairer but brighter) and the pore become smaller. Well, the scar still there but I kinda feel like, it improves my skin texture. My sister have been using the same with different formula, she said the same. So I guess, for the time being, I'll continue using that.

The reason why I shared it here is, I never been so passionate bout any skincare before. I love beauty product but mostly, it something that easily access and cheap. Haha... And now, I surf the website EVERYDAY and admire all the products. Oh, my next wishlist is, even better serum. I've heard that, you need to wear serum to improve your skin and now, I'm going to be 30 next year, so why don't start a regime for better skin.

Picnic

Plan untuk berpicnic memang dah lama sangat dalam list, tapi selalunya memang tak menjadi memandangkan mamanya malas nak prepare food. Haha..Because we were on tight budget, jadi memang tak ada la aktiviti melawat mall. Lebih kepada, bring Amna outside. Hari-hari terkurung dalam rumah, so hujung minggu memang wajib la bawa dia keluar.

On saturday morning last week, woke up and prepare nasi lemak, sambal bilis and sandwiches. Tugas husband pulak memang tolong mandi and siapkan anak-anak dia tu. So, off we go to Tanjung Balau.

Tanjung Balau is situated at Kota Tinggi district. It was 1hour drive from Jb through Senai-Desaru highway. Even namanya highway, tapi jalannya banyak juga yang rosak. maybe sebab tu laluan lori .We arrived around 1pm. Tanjung Balau is among the favourite spot for picnicking but on that day, macam tak ramai orang pulak.

Rupanya, it was too windy. Sampai ja situ, nampak tingginya ombak. I was freaked out. Semenjak kejadian tsunami, i think i am a bit frantic of the sea. Selalu pikir macam-macam sampaikan selalu mimpi pasal ombak kuat. 

Sebab kan memang dah sampai, bentang jugak la tikar dekat bawah pondok. Kuatnya angin sampaikan boleh terbang bantal tidur Amna. Makan pun memang tak feel sangat. Kena pegang macam-macam takut barang pun ikut terbang. Makan laju-laju, sambil berdoa tak de kejadian apa-apa pun. Ramai jugak yang mati lemas. Dari cerita penjual aiskrim (suami terlebih ramah. Interview pakcik jual aiskrim), last month je 3 orang mati. Inalillah.

Overall, ada la tandas awam (kena bayar tapi macam takde apa tindakan pun. Nak kata bersih tak jugak), tempat makan. Kedai kraftangan, muzium nelayan. chalet. And that day, ada kenduri kahwin and family day kot, sebab chalet penuh ja orang berpakaian sukan and pakai cantik-cantik macam nak p kenduri.haha..

Dah habes makan, ingatkan nak balik, But, i asked husband bawa pusing-pusing Desaru. Sebelah Tanjung Balau je rupanya, around 10 km. Disebabkan banyak sekolah, kolej, and hotel, Bandar Penawar ni macam membangun jugak. selalu dengar nama tapi tak pernah sampai. Rupanya, bandar Penawar ni memang dekat sangat dengan pantai Desaru.

We paid rm4 to enter pantai Desaru. I was oppressed la sebab macam pantai kot, kena bayar jugak. Lagipun nampak macam ombak tinggi macam tanjung balau (obviously, sebelah-sebelah je) boleh ke nak mandi.

Desaru

Amaran merah

Nampak banyak red flag, memang tak boleh la mandi-mandi. Tapi ramai jugak mat and minah salleh mandi. Diaorang suka la kot boleh surfing. Husband bawak Amna jalan dekat pantai. Ingatkan dia  just nak ambik gambar je. Malas nak join dengan si tembam ni and I was a bit scared of the waves. Hehe..So apaknya saja bawa. We bring her to the beach when she was 1 years old but she cried!Haha..Dia takut dengan ombak yang kena kaki kot.

So while husband was taking her photo, suddenly ombak kuat terkena la si budak kecik tu. Dia diam je. Husband pun diam tak nak takut kan dia kan. Tengok-tengok, suka sangat dengan pantai. Siap taknak balik. Sambil tunjuk nak main lagi pantai. So second trip, again apaknya bawa lagi main air. 

Seram jugak dengan ombak tu but i trust my husband. Haha..Amna duduk je kat gigi air tu. Bila ombak kuat, kena la sikit kaki dia. Jadilah dapat rasa main pantai sekejap. I think, my husband suka la tu sebab ada geng nak mandi pantai. Isterinya memang tak minat pantai. Posing tepi pantai, ha yang tu confirm I suka bang. Haha.. Dah tulis baru teringat. Tak sempat bagi si adik ni rasa main pasir. Hehe..Mamanya tak larat nak dukung lama-lama. Kakaknya main pantai, mama paksa si adik menyusu dalam kereta. Kahkahkah...tunggu la adik besar sikit, lepas ni boleh join abah and kakak ok sayang. Hehe..

So, nanti boleh la buat list lagi activities for weekends. Takkan nak melawat shopping mall aja. Memang koyak poket suamiku. hehe..

2015

The first entry in 2015.

New fresh, new start and new hope.

Hopefully, tercapai la some of the new year resolutions.

Cerita Amna Hafiya

Harini rasa nak cerita pasal Amna la. Lagi 4 bulan, cukup la umur Amna Hafiya 2 tahun. Amna ni memang manja sangat lelagi dengan abah dia. Kalau abah dia tinggal sekejap, menangis macam kena pukul. Haritu, keluar rumah sama-sama sebab husband meeting pkl 10. Sekali, dia tengok abahnya tak masuk kereta sama-sama, menangis siap pukul-pukul tingkap. Mama dah tak laku.

Bila anak dah besar, rasa macam sekejap je. Amna jenis yang tak boleh paksa ke hapa. Tambah kalau suruh sayang. Ada hari dia kasi la cium sikit tapi kebanyakkan hari, takdenya. Melainkan, dia tahu dia buat salah, kena marah dengan mama. Tetiba ja peluk, sambil muahhhh. Hahaha..sejuk hati mak. Terus tak sampai hati nak marah. Ini memang taktik dia.

Kalau ajar cakap pun, selalunya dia pandang ja. Nanti tetiba dia ulang balik apa yang kita ajar. Dulu favourite dia Upin-Ipin. Hari-hari mintak nak tengok. Kena la restrict jugak. Mana boleh nak mengadap phone/tv je kan. So sekarang macam dah kurang sikit. Kadang on kan dvd bagi tengok frozen. Sebab mama nak buat house chores. At least, bila ada song ke hapa, sekejap tu boleh la dia layan. lepas tu sambung keluarkan periuk belanga. And yang kelakar sebab dia panggil Elsa tu Aisha. haha..dah jadi nama melayu.

Rambut Amna dah panjang. Mamanya nakk sangat buat pesyen-pesyen rambut. Ada baby girl, nak jugak bagi kiut-kiut kan. Haaaa tapi, kalau letak je atas kepala dia, nanti dia cabut. Huhu..mama dah teringin nak beli headband lelawa. Tapi pasrah jerla. Tunggu nanti dah besar sikit la kot. So now, kena senyap-senyap pakaikan klip rambut. Bertahan la lama sikit.

Since dah ada adik ni, awal-awal dulu takde la dia main sangat dengan adik. agaknya dia pun taktau dia ada adik. Hehe..baru-baru ni aje panggil adik sambil cium-cium. Kadang mama tinggal Amna and adik dalam bilik. lepas tu mengendap nak tengok Amna buat apa. Alhamdulillah tak penah pulak dia pukul senyap-senyap ke apa. Dia cium ja adik sambil pegang-pegang kepala adik dia. Adik dia memang suka ngan kakak. Kalau dengar suara kakak diam ja kadang dia pun macam nak join main dengan kakak. haha..

Semalam bawa checkup Ammar. Sebab pergi sorang so tinggal la Amna rumah pengasuh dia. Dah tengah hari rasa malas pulak nak masuk lab. Bedua la dengan Ammar kat rumah sambil tunggu orang Astro datang betulkan piring tu. Dah petang ambil kakaknya. Masuk dalam kereta ja, terus panggil adik. Sambil main cak-cak. Adik dia siap ketawa bedekah-dekah. Lega hati mama. Rindu jugak la dengan adik dia.

Last 3 weeks rasanya, time maqrib. Hujan lebat kat luar. Amna tengah tengok channel oasis tu. Tetiba skrin jadi warna hitam. Menangis lari laju-laju pegang kaki apaknya. Start from that day, asik cakap takut ja. Tak pernah dah nak tengok tv kat depan or main sorang-sorang. Minum susu pun nak orang teman. Stress tau kadang-kadang. Nak mandi pun dia menjerit-jerit sambil ketuk pintu. Nak masak asik nak main dekat kaki mama.

But after that, husband jumpa dengan jiran depan rumah, katanya anak dia kena minyak dagu. And ada la makhluk halus yang kacau anak perempuan dia. Dengar cerita tu, terus kitaorang pun takut. Entah Amna ni nampak something tak. Dah la pulak tu. Ada hari dia cakap takut sambil pandang atas. Seram mama time maqrib-maqrib. Nak biar dia main sorang pun tak berani sebab macam kesian pulak dekat dia. Nasib duduk rumah kecik ja. Atleast, suami balik lambat takde la takut sangat. Tapi berharap la fasa takut dia ni cepat berlalu. kesian dia and kesian kami jugak. Sebab memang tak boleh langsung, langsung kena tinggal. Penat emosi kekadang menahan sabar. huhu..

The relationship after 2 babies

Haritu ada terbaca kisah mah yang viral kat internet. Well, taknak comment pasal sikap lelaki itu. But it truly reflect bout me. After having babies, im still searching the best method untuk membahagikan masa. Lagi-lagi sekarang, dah start going to the lab. I admit, sometimes, it was so hard to get ‘me’ time, to pamper myself or to take a rest. Selalunya, laju-laju mandi, tak sempat pun nak cuci rambut. Tambah kalau nak sapu conditioner, lagi la rasa macam buang masa. Dengan si kecik tu dah pandai pusing, setiap masa bedebar ja tinggal atas katil. The worst thing, I get paranoid. Rasa macam terdengar je Ammar nangis. So end up, nak mandi betul-betul, tunggu husband balik, and usually, it’s almost 9pm.

Believe it or not, i even search macam mana cara nak kemas rumah (can view this link http://mengemasrumah.blogspot.com/). Rasa macam kemas rumah tu simple sebab dari kecik memang dah terbiasa, tapi bila baca blog ni, rupanya kemas rumah pun kena belajar tau.

I really want to welcomed him with big smile not dengan bau muntah anak, rambut serabut selalunya sanggul ja and rumah bersepah. Homai, betul-betul macam kapal karam. The thing bout husband is, dia jenis pengemas sikit. HAHA.ok. Isteri pulak jenis, anak dah tidor baru la laju-laju nak kemas rumah. My husband prefer to eat home made cook so, bila tak masak je, rasa bersalah sangat. Kadang tu, dia cakap je nak diet, taknak makan malam, but end up, dia masak maggi la, makan biskut la. Ish tak sampai. Dah la balik penat-penat, lepas tu tolong jaga anak sulung because i have to take care of the baby, kemas rumah and sidai baju (I wonder, what were I do?) and then nothing to feast him.

kadang-kadang baca masalah rumah tangga orang, it will make us think bout us.  It made me want to improve myself. Suami Mah tu complaint sebab Mah dah tak macam dulu, tak sama macam sebelum kahwin. Dulu, ingatkan my husband jenis yang nak isteri sentiasa cantik. Bila tanya dia, he said, dia tak kisah pun pasal gemuk ke hapa mungkin lebih pada kesihatan la kan but he prefer balik rumah, rumah kemas. Yang lain-lain dia tak kisah sangat. Sebenarnya, tak semua suami tu sama kehendaknya. Some like isteri pandai masak, ada yang kalau isteri jaga anak dengan elok dah jadi satu kelegaan. Ada pulak yang jenis tengok rumah kemas pun dia rasa bahagia ( suami saya la tuee). Tapi, jaga kekemasan (bukan kecantikan) penting jugak sebenarnya. Secara tak langsung kita akan rasa good if we take care of ourself.

I want him to eat air tangan isteri. Suka sangat bila dia berselera makan. Rasa puas hati. So usually, petang bila anak dah tidor, barula laju-laju masak. Sesimple mungkin, selalunya sejenis lauk. Sian suami. I tried so hard to make everything before he’s coming home. I can see he is in high mood bila balik rumah, rumah kemas, anak-anak dah mandi and his wife in pyjamas (sebab selalunya kalau tak mandi, isternya pakai tshirt ja.haha) and if he is lucky, isteri masak makanan kegemaran. I love looking at his eyes. It’s like sparkling (melebih pulak penerangan nya, but memang betul. Mata memang bersinar sangat).

I read somewhere, jadi ibu mesti rajin. The toughtest job, being a mother. Once enter, never quit. Kalau penat or tak sihat, still you have to be a mother. Tapi itulah, kadang-kadang terlupa jugak pada suami. Exhausted sangat and paling paling buruk perangai, bf anak sekali dengan mak nya tidor. So paling-paling simple boleh buat, memang selalunya tidor sebelah dia. Since Amna, selalunya I will sleept in between husband and anak. For me, it’s huge different. At least, bila tidor sebelah, I can smell him or hug him (eh.) jadi, esoknya rasa good sangat. Betul la kot eh bau badan suami boleh tenangkan isteri. Haha..

So pendek kata, tanya lah husband. Yang mana lebih dia prefer. So, dah tahu jawapannya, boleh la usaha penuhi kehendak suami. Mungkin dengan usaha yang sedikit tu, boleh membuahkan kemesraan.