in balancing your emotion

when the date is approaching so fast

it feels like in a blink of an eye

suddenly, I experienced so many emotion

I don't know if this is about hormone or the way it is

 bila ramai yang cakap tak boleh attend the wedding

I just say, it was okay

I try to stay calm and be reasonanble to whatever reason

but deep inside, I feel so sad and frustated

kadang-kadang rasa macam stress sangat

lagi stress, bila orang cakap kesian pada pengantin

tak ramai boleh datang

lagi la rasa nak menangis

u know, when u were expected people to come and cherish your happy moment

it just wouldn't happend

it was so sad at first

but, kalau dilayan perasaan, 

mesti lagi stress

but, I always remind myself, 

expect the unexpected

and appreciate whoever share your moment

and dont blame other if they couln't come

they may have their reason

so come on, don't be so stress
this is just a small matter
tak payah la nak sedih sangat
biasa la tu kan
bila kita dah block tarikh, maybe orang tu ada hal yang tak boleh nak elak
just cheer up kn

and be happy that you eventually, 

will getting married to the man that you truly love!!
 

honey to the moon

ok, already book 

i'm uber excited

although it locally, 

i find it very amusing!

thanks to this post, i change my mind in instant!

invitation card

got my invitation card 28th Aprill
perasaan, nothing.hahahaha..
i'll wait for the card almost a month
but, considering that
they didn't have enough worker, so, okey

the card is, love
I manage to love after several attemp. HAHA
they deliver something that we been asking before

but the truth is i don't like their service
fullstop!

before this, they promise to done everything at the end of March
so, we have 2 months before the wedding
however, they called, asking to pick up later than that
have to discuss with my parents first
yang nak drive jauh-jauh is my dad
mesti la kena tengok schedule dia dulu

but then, we visited jugak end of March
nak tengok if they dah buat or not, maybe before that,
ada yang memaki hamun di fesbok diaorang
so, they expect all the bride will be like that
beria terang like we don't understand kerja diaorang
i accepted it, biasa la kalau nak explain
the thing is, yang membuat i'm getting mad and dissapointed
how they being so rude while explaining

lepas tu, macam nak marah pulak dah
siap perli-perli suruh berdoa banyak-banyak
sembahyang jangan tinggal
so then, proses berjalan lancar
ya Allah, seriously
frustated sangat 
i just smile and said, okey then

they set a date,on 21st April
but, we came a week later
marah pulak sebab tak datang ambil hari yang dah janji
penat buat cepat-cepat
alasan, my dad cakap nak cepat
i smile again sambil cakap
yerla, bride tanak kasi pressure kan
take your time, tambah, dah tak cukup pekerja kan
eh berasap aku tau!

nasib bukan org yang sama entertain
kalau dak, aku sembur hang kt situ jugak.huh

but syukur la.sekarang dah suka
and tak payah serabut fikir pasal benda remeh temeh.

My 2 weeks wedding plan

• siapkan 2 veil!fuh..bertungkus lumus la lepaih ni.
• final fitting baju akad and sanding
• compile love song
• DIY bunga pahar
• DIY guestbook
• siapkan centerpiece
• confirm cake
• DIY shoes
• final touch both dress
• prepare VIP doorgift

eh, macam sikit, tapi kerjanya adalah bertimbun.haha..ini yang sempat diingat.will update later!

life

i should be more grateful to Allah

for everything that He gave me all along

i feel so ashamed for asking more

knowing that i give so little 

i receive many good news this week

may it big issues or small issues

but we should be thankful rite?

yesterday, i was so confused

and yet today i still the same

but daddy used to say that

we cannot have everything that we wish to

in life, you have to sacrifice 

in order to have some

you may have the most luxurious mansion in this world

but you may not have love

or you have everything that money could buy

but you craving for a crying baby

you may drive Bentley

but yet, you have to host a party 

to ease your loneliness

so many example to describe

i'm not pointing to other

but just a reminder for me

maybe, we earn a little

but happy as we are

bunga pahar

last time, mom showed me bunga telur emas

dapat from, tak ingat kat mana

haha..mb, she got while attend wedding

puteri tuanku raja, agaknya la

forget already

 

this is te example, bunga emas 

since that day,

we both nakkk sangat bunga emas as my bunga pahar

cantik and tak pernah nampak dah zaman sekarang ni

yerla, sekarang semua dah boleh beli kan

tapi, to match the wedding theme

we choose silver, but opt gold for the flower

sumber inspirasi

but the thing is,

the bunga and daun tu

sangat la susah nak mencari

i think, they didn't produce it anymore

cari kat nilai 3

banyak kedai dah masuk

lastly, found at kedai UandMe

dekat dalam kotak

bawah-bawah rak, okey

huhu..so, while waiting for my dad 

i secretly tolak kotak tu ke dalam sikit

wahahahahha

takut orang lain beli

keji!

tapi, hanya jumpa daun saja

DAUN hokey!

bunganya memang tadak jual asing-asing

benci

dah la daun tu sejambak

ala, macam bouquet tu

so, if i separate it 

memang pendek la batang bunga telur ku

tapi, tetap beli jugak

gasak la if tak jumpa bunga emas idaman kalbu tu

as the daun pun memang dah banyak

so, kalau tak letak bunga

okey dah kot

takpa la

i'll try untuk cari jugak, nanti

bekas telur dah beli

at Ayer Hitam

jadinya, bertambah la keja nak membuat

bunga telur ni

hope menjadi la eh

tapi, bila nak start buat semua ni?