Showing posts with label pregnancy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pregnancy. Show all posts

Monday, 17 November 2014

my second birth experience

Oh my.last post is bout the announcement and its November already. alhamdulillah. I just gave birth to a healthy baby boy on 14/8/14.





Even I experienced the lobour 1 and 4months before, still i can't differentiate between false alarm or the real contraction. Last time, Amna was born 4days before the edd. i kinda expect, it was the same with baby no 2.

Bila dah hujung-hujung pregnancy, i wish that i will give birth earlier. Lagi-lagi, kawan-kawan zaman kecik semuanya dah bersalin. I was all excited (erm, except the pain)to have a baby. Above all, I felt so heavier day by day. The heaviest weight so far. Susahnya nak bangun dari duduk, susahnya nak tunduk, cepat penat and difficult bila nak tidur malam sebab baby tersangatlah aktif. 

I've sense that maybe i'll go to the labour on 14/8/14. Sebab tarikh cantik, senang nak ingat.hehe.. So as usual, i was wake up in the middle of the night to visit the loo. It was 2 am. Rasa macam sakit sikit, but i thought it was nothing. Rasa macam sakit biasa la agaknya because it came and go for the past 2 weeks. it will go after having some rest. At 4am, again i was wake up. But this time, sakit perut tu tetap sama. tak hilang-hilang. Maybe because i eat like a p*g the day before and takes a lot of time to discard them. It was totally confusing.

So i google, macam mana sakit contraction. sempat lagi. It stated, it was like having a period pain.seriously, i havent had my period for the past 10months. So i got the idea to download contraction calculator. Hehe..it was like 5minutes in the gap. Terus kejutkan husband and told him, i am in pain. He asked weather i want to go to the hospital or not. Time tu teragak-agak. should or should not.well, ingatkan sakit biasa and bila dah siang, it will be okay. But then, bila bangun berjalan pun still sakit. So i said yes. Then he decided to bring amna as we both dont know weather this is the false alarm or not. While he prepared amna's diaper bag, i took shower and prepared myself. 

And soon as we both finished, amna was wakes up. At 5.30, we go to the hospital. Meanwhile, the contraction is not a joke. Husband was panicked (he didnt said this but i know. He even forget the way to the hospital and i have to guide him). The road was so terrible that even he drove really slow, i could still feel the bump. Itu dah macam gerakkan naga yang sedang tidor je. I cant control my anger that sometimes im shouting. Well sayang, I cant tolerate that..hahaha 

We arrived at jabatan kecemasan HSI during the subuh adzan. Hsi is really strict. If youre not 4cm dilated, they wont accept you. That what make us unsure. After registration, they asked me to go laid at bilik saringan. I was there waiting for a doctor to check while having to tahan sakit.oh my.oh my. 

After bout half an hour a dr came for a check. It was 4cm. So the baby will come today. Alhamdulillah. The labour room was fulled. Jadi, i have to waited outside. I was there sambil baca surah-surah yang mana teringat. Nurse came in, pass the pink attire, ambik kasut, bag everything, and suruh berehat. If anything, just told them. Memang dah tak rasa nak tidor pun. The contraction keep stronger.

After an hour, it getting pretty intense. A young dr tengah check another patient kat sebelah tu. She told me kalau rasa nak b*rak, told her. I said yes. Dah lama lepas tu, she heard me mengerang kesakitan. Time tu memang rasa nak nangis. tetiba je teringat, ha time nak nangis ni la dah boleh nak beranakkan amna.eh aku dah nak besalin ke.siap boleh monolog dalaman lagi.haha..

So, she asked her friend friend to check on me. Cute je orangnya, she said, 8cm. Dah boleh tolak dah ni. I was like, what, 8cm. nak tunggu bila ni. huhu..cannot tahan anymore la dr. Then nurse datang, nak tolak masuk labour room. I said, I cannot walk or sit down anymore. Rasa macam anytime je. She said yeah, it's because kepala baby memang dah kat bawah tu aje. She's nice. So paksa kan jugak duduk atas wheelchair. Nasib baik dekat. Haha..then dah sampai bilik no 12, another nurse prepare everything and check again. Katanya, dh fully dilated. Nak besalin pun boleh dah ni.

Why sama je macam amna. Orang suruh besalin, time-time tu la tak rasa. Siap boleh betahan lagi dengan sakit tu. After half and hour, alhamdulillah. Lahirlah our baby, Muhammad Ammar. Oh husband tak sempat masuk sebab dia pegang Amna.

This time, after bersalin je, terus nurse letakkan Ammar on my chest. Last time, they just show Amna and asked the gender. So i thought, bagusla (ke haku je tak ambik tau pasal prosedur ni). The beauty of newborn baby. Licin. Haha. That the first thing bout him. Takut sikit dia jatuh sebab licin ke hapa. Lepas besalin, macam wah penatnya. But then, dia senyap je. Sambung tidor. Adik ni.hahhaha...even suruh nursing pun taknak. After an hour of skin to skin, nurse wanted to wrap him. Menangis budak kecik ni. Bukan calang-calang k, memang kuat gila. Teharu mama because he want only mama. Letak je atas mama, senyap. Siap tidur macam kan sedap sangat. yerla anak.mama banyak isi.

Yes, kelahiran setiap anak sememangnya berbeza. Pertama ka, kedua ka, jalan ceritanya tetap tidak sama. sentiasa special. Nothing like the first born is the special one. No, but first born is every parents first love. But one thing for sure. Kasih sayang tu tak pernah terbahagi. actually, ianya bertambah.



Monday, 31 March 2014

The new 'news'

From the last post (that is like so last year), I bought a book ‘now you are a mother’. Neither that I know, it was so ‘near’ to me that the next thing is, I’m getting pregnant again! Haha..what a coincidence. The current pregnancy is unexpected, well how you expect, it’s not your plan. It’s what Allah had written to his entire slave. At first, I was lke er..im pregnant again? But the next day, the joy of being pregnant flooded me. But to experience the second birth, it creep me out.

Husband was the one who insisted me to take the upt test. I know, he is so excited to know and all over the moon. I was so scared to make the test but deep inside me, I knew it. I am pregnant. It just, it takes some time for me to really enjoy it. Not that I don’t want it (who doesn’t want a baby), but you know..a mama issue. 

The joy of having another addition came faster. I started to think the gender, the name and everything. Despite I worried over some matters (I tend to get worried about the first trimester and others), it was like the first one. I was overwhelmed. I’m having morning sickness (luckily, it make me lose those stubborn 5kg weight) but so far, I am healthy. Been worried about the excess weight. But after the first trimester, the lose weight came faster. My god, should watch my weight after this. I don’t want to be obese. Crying.


I don’t mind a girl or boy. I enjoy both. Hehe..But I was so sorry to Amna. My energy drained faster than I though. Thanks to my husband who so understands bout my condition. The first pregnancy,I get to met him in 2 or 3 weeks but this time, Alhamdulillah. He was here beside me.I am really hoping, our life will become much more merrier, dilimpahi rezeki and bertambah bahagia. 

Monday, 18 March 2013

pregnancy so far

I'm in my 36 weeks pregnancy (padahl sibuk check babycenter.com.telupa dah)haha..
how time flies so fast. time awal-awal pregnant dulu, rasa macam lambatnya nak enter 2nd trimester and so on. but now, in less than a month, we will having our baby.insyaAllah.

entering my 2nd trimester, i think everything look good. my health improve.no more sudden craving bila tengok makanan.haha..tapi yang paling seram, selera makan dah bertambah.owh, tekejut kadang-kadang how can i stuff myself dengan banyak gila makanan. hahaha...and after every meal, im looking for something to munching. preferably, biskut la. sebab senang capai and fruits. and no surprise, I gain 4kg in a month.duh..

early 20-24 weeks, still selera makan takde la mengejut sangat. but, i can stuff myself with anything. just, i don't really like to eat. muntah-muntah semua dah stabil. still very active. some people don't know that im pregnant. my tummy still not show yet.yang paling lawak, i bump with one of the techinician staff at the clinic. he thought that im not married yet.hahaha..my supervisor siap tekejut when i told her that im pregnant. dia suruh bangun lagi nak tengok perut. punyalah tak percaya. padahal, time rushing nak ke bilik dia, i always stop to catch my breath outside her room.hehehehe..nak memanjat sampai tingkat 3 tu punyalah penat. dah la selalu lambat. that's why. heee..

in my 24-28 weeks, memang sungguh la berubah. selera makan macm gorgon. semua benda nak makan.anything. nafsu semata. bila beli, kadang dah tak boleh sumbat (tadak ruang dalam perut dah -___-), sanggup,makan ulang-ulang. tanak membazir. but sometimes, membazir jugak la. bila langsung tak boleh suap dah.

and first time kena minum air gula sebab lebih berat badan. got help from friends. and i've prepared myself with the worse effect.hehe..and that's my tips. expect the worse la. so that, mentally, i can tolerate to anything. bila kena minum, telan cepat-cepat. and nurse said, minum sikit air suam buat basah tekak. so, i don't think air gula is so bad la kan. hehehe..the after effect, pening kepala. other than kena minum air gula, have to check my bp 3 times in a week. alhamdulillah, semua ok. result air gula, i don't know yet. owh, i take tetanus injection 2 times, in my 20 weeks and 24 weeks.

my pregnancy so far, alhamdulillah. sakit belakang belum menyerang. cramp dekat betis sometimes je. tapi, cepat penat. swollen feet, not yet. alhamdulillah. but, paling nangis, dah start nampak stretch mark.huwaaa..cepat-cepat sapu losyen n bio-oil.harap bekesan. tapi, it still exist.nangis bukan kepalang dah ni.takpa la. anggap jerla hadiah pregnant. bila ngadu dengan husband, he said it's okay. pregnant kan. tp bila tunjuk, terus dia cakap scary -___-.cehhh..in his defend, tengok memang la macam scary. sebab tak pernah tengok. but it's okay. yerla husband. whatever. (sayang, bagi pinjam kereta jap, nak balik kampung!!merajuk.)

and last check-up at Poliklinik Kathi (the nearest and the only clinic that we know around our neighbourhood yang ada buat scan), finally we know the gender of the baby. baby tak malu-malu nak menunjuk. siap time scan, dia boleh exercise tangan, kaki sebelah lipat, sebelah lagi tengah melurus. apa yang awak sedang buat tu baby.harap gender nye adalah betul la. kang dah siap beli, sekali gender lain.takpa la bb.merasa la pakai baju kaler macam-macam kan.hahahhaa...which one pun, we still love u baby.

and today is my 36th weeks of pregnancy. baby suka sangat mengeras badan. kadang-kadang rasa macam dia poke me at and sometimes, macam dia tengah bergolek suka hati. hahahha...i think, time paling dia suka sangat nak main, is when im sitting or ride a car. haaa....berombak-ombak perut rasa. i do wonder apa la yang dia tengah buat ni.apa-apa jerla baby.asalkan aktif. apa-apa pun, we do hope that, the baby is in good health. dirahmati and diberkati. semoga lahir sihat dan sempurna.amin..another 4 weeks.am I ready.owh..

so,there's go my update bout the pregnancy. next week will be the busiest week. hope that baby can hold on, and lahir selepas this week okey. harap Allah mudahkan semuanya..amin...

Wednesday, 26 December 2012

the emotion

entering the second trimester, i can proudly said that, i haven't experienced any emotional break down yet
some of my friends had this feeling when their husband can't fulfill their craving
or simply just by watching drama. i know, every pregnancy treat you in different ways.

im a sensitive person before especially during that 'time'. so i guess the hormone did drive me crazy once in a while. i guess, being pregnant is a bless as my husband said, im more calm and gentle.haha..
even when i'm really mad, i can stay calm, like nothing happen

until recently, i felt a bit different. im more prone to any sensitive issues, like a crybaby. no one said anything. but im the only person who think deeply and felt the negativity running inside my body.
and in the middle of the night, my body is too tired but i can't properly shut my eyes cause of this deep thinking.hasihh..not good!

im quite sure this is because of the pregnancy hormone?isn't?well, let just blame the hormone.owh please. i want my baby to be the happiest baby. im too tired for any drama.

Thursday, 13 December 2012

satisfying the craving

since pregnant, i dont have any weird craving. even when mom asked what would i like to have for lunch, i just don't know. cooked whatever.i'll bite them up.haha..
but one time,i am craving in the middle of the night.koteow(not sure of the spell) goreng, only from hostel's cafe.haha..siap tak boleh tidor sebab teringat-ringat.

others, i think i can tahan lagi la.but on ig, it so difficult to tahan and have to telan air liur saja.
but this one, i've been craving for so long.haih.susahnya nak cari.
padahal, kalau tak teringin tu, ada ja jual.senang nak cari.
we both don't know where to get this in JB. if KL banyak tempat kan.
we have tried to ask at Delicious, oh my.dah habes pulak at that time. memang betul-betul tak ada rezeki la
lastly today, the search came to an end!hehe

i was paying for my lunch and a white box with choclate moist cake flyer glued at the front,
i opened and thought im having choc cake today. but came to me,nada. so i just grab the white one thinking that, okey. we have coconut jelly la for today.hee..but i do wonder, what the heck, the jelly cost me bout RM5 ?well.im talking to my husband and give a check.my oh my, to my surprise. it was red velvet cake.hahaha..memang rezeki sungguh.
it was not so damn good but i guess it satisfy my craving.



so lepas ni dah tak mengidam dah.sebab dah dapat rasa.hee..

and now, kuddos to my growing baby bump!
i can't even buttoned my jeans or fitted into my usual shirt
owh.well, maternity pant is not suitable, yet since my belly is not that big.
pakai the usual one, rasa macam nak tersembul perut.
wear maternity, too loose.oh my belly!




Monday, 3 December 2012

busy kicking

oh, harini sangat busy kicking mak dia.tekejut-kejut maknya,
i started to feel the movement around my 19 weeks,alhamdulillah
hari rabu on 21/11 to be exact.ha kena ingat date ni sbb first time
pandai dia pilih timing.time tgh merajuk dengan bapaknya malam2.
haha..suddenly, tetiba terasa macam ada benda pulak dlm perut

but i never been assured.this is my first time.so ragu-ragu lagi 
just keep quite and diam je sambil menghayati.haha..terus bebaik dengan bapaknya.
ntah apalagi feel pompuan mengandung ni.ish.ahaha..

so many times i felt the same ways. so im asking my sister
baby kicking tu rasa macam perut bedenyut ka.haha..i dunno how to describe that.something like that.
my husband was once spying his baby and suddenly he was kicking
merasa la dia dengar sekejap.we were in ldm, so it was a precious moment for him

i was hoping that Allah will protect the baby inside and baby mebesar dengan sihat dan sempurna.amin


Sunday, 25 November 2012

most precious gift

Alhamdulillah, Allah granted our wish to have a baby. I'm reaching my 20 weeks in few days.so I guess it's the right time to write the experience here

After getting married, we both had talked about the baby
but, never getting into any serious discussion
but I surely know that, my husband wanted the baby most
alhamdulillah. he never give any pressure or blame me or anything.
he just secretly wish that my P is not coming every month.haha..
and for me, I'm always accepted with open arm.If Allah granted our wish, i never thank enough

many married couple do advise that, do not feel the pressure to get pregnant immediately
we tend to get the same question whenever we go anywhere
even one of my friend, who recently having a baby, do ask me privately on fb just after the wedding.she advised me to make the baby ASAP like i don't want a baby.well.i don't know why people do that.
we were really really newlyweds. just give us some time
afterall, it's Allah plan, not us

it was in the mid Ramadhan.i remember one time, after having our Maqrib prayer, i looke at my husband face and secretly dua' that i'm pregnant on that holy month. so that, me,baby and husband can pray tarawikh together.
I started to notice that mr p is coming late.but never bother as some people said that, maybe our body is trying to adjust to the hormone after getting married. before this, my mr P is a very schedule person. i was in Penang at that time.i called my husband and we both just like, being so playful couple.behave like im pregnant and everything.hahaha..

but i do felt that, i tend to feel so tired easily. after subuh, i will sleep like no body business.
even, husband have to wake me up, and im half asleep, send him to the door, and wait impatiently for him to lock the door with eyes halfy shut down, and go straight to the bed.haah. to tired to say goodbye or even smile or wait patiently until he safely go to the office.hehe..

so, after getting late about 4 to 5 days, i know that something is wrong.
i told husband and he didn't want me to take the upt test alone. he really wanted to do that together
so, he bought me one clear blue digital upt tester back in JB.hehe..he did the survey alone. i just ask him to buy upt tester in whatever brand.i don't really care.haha..good job husband!

so the next wednesday, during sahoor, my husband was preparing the meals (im was so tired from the long journey..hee..) i was awake and remember to do the upt test.it's best to have the test in the early morning as our urine is very fresh at that time.eh nervous jugak rupanya.hahaha..
and wow, clear blue is so fasting in deliver the result!

eh terbalik.malas nak rotate.haha

i asked husband and told him that im not pregnant.hehe..just wanted to know what was his reaction.he's calmly said that, it's okay.maybe bukan rezeki. padahal, ada sedikit la rasa sedih kat muka dia.kahkahkah..
i gently ask him to look for himself. hahahaha..eh pregnant?hee..

we both actually, was very blur. we're not jumping on the couch like tom cruise or excitedly hug each other.
we just, calm. and I move to our bedroom and laid down. while thinking, what is the next step.haha..husband come and congratulate.seriously, like I won something.kahkahkah..and we both laugh and hug.that's the best.after that, terus straight pergi makan nasi. eh, macam takde feeling.nope. we just, lost for a words.

actually, im very afraid of anything happen to my pregnancy. i'll pray that Allah will protect us from any harm and my baby will be safe in the womb. it's not an easy job to have a baby. it's rezeki from Allah and Allah know when is the right time to give the most precious gift.Alhamdulillah. now, there are many things to consider. Im in the process of learning, becoming a daughter in law, a wife, and now a mother.
moga Allah mudahkan segalanya.insyaAllah.